I did not have a good day today. I’m once again feeling hurt and mad at Hubby. The thing that is hard with depression is to tell when emotions like the ones I’m feeling are valid, or if I’m just having a hissy fit and making a mountain out of a molehill.
I won’t get into all the details, but here is the short form:
Literally within an hour of publishing my post about the Liebster Award, and my mention of my Chef Crush, Johnny Iuzzini and how awesome it was to meet him 2 years ago, he posted on Facebook that he was going to be doing a cooking demonstration in Miami, at a location only an hour and a half from where I live. And he’d be signing his new cooking book, which I have been wanting since its release a few months ago.
Anyways, I had convinced AMIL to drive me & EJ to the event and I had some cash to buy the book. I was super excited, but this morning Hubby put the kibosh on it…because money. I’m upset because, yes money is tight, but lots of money has been/was planned on being spent this week on things that were not super necessary (soda stream syrups, snacks for the Super Bowl, stuff like that). I could care less about those things, yet those were the things money was/is going to be spent on (Superbowl snacks were eventually taken off the shopping list after I fussed). I had no say in the matter and yet what was important to me is the thing that didn’t happen.
It kind of became the culmination of a lot of feelings about a lot of things between me and Hubby lately, because either through carelessness, coldness, or unintentionally, he has hurt me a lot lately by both things he has done and things he has failed to do.
And it hurts. But its hard to tell how much of it is valid feelings and how much of it is me feeling entitled. And it sucks.
On the plus side, I had my first real Pampered Chef party earlier this week, and it did really well! I’m also doing ok with my catalog show. Im closing that out & submitting the order around 10 EST tonight if you want to order anything. I’m $450 away from “qualifying” (selling enough product in the first 30 days to officially be an consultant), which as it so happens is how much I need to sell by the end of the night to get $230 in free product as a bonus. So if you need any pots and pans, or stoneware, or spatulas, or peelers, or grilling stuff, or serving stuff, go check out out the catalog and place an order today please! It would totally make my night if I qualified and got that free product bonus!