I’m Feeling

Its a new Dawn. Its a New Day. Its a New Life for me. And I’m Feeling….Good

Its a new week and I’m still riding those good feelings from last week. While it is still weird to have a default positive, I’m going to enjoy it for as long as it lasts. It’s so weird to have my emotional score be so high.


Who are you and what have you done with Sadness?

My Motivational Score is still low, but that is more from exhaustion/lack of sleep than from my mood. Apparently my sleep sucks so bad that I’m only getting about 4 hours of real sleep a night. That would explain my lack of energy.

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Princess Registration Update

When I posted on Monday, my outlook looked pretty grim for yesterday’s registration and the future of #RunAllTheRaces2016. I was considering deferring Dopey and Rebel and trying again in 2017, while praying that Hubby’s grad school schedule was not going to be so insane as to make it impossible for me to go to my races. I was starting to look for TAs to book through (because unfortonately, my travel agent who I adore doesn’t get bibs) or charities I could run with, knowing that neither of those options would be ideal but could get me to my goal.

I went to bed crying Monday Night

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Why I Like Running Alone

When I first started running, I absolutely needed someone to run with me. The idea of being out there alone just didn’t appeal to me, plus I knew I needed someone to hold me accountable to make sure I actually went out for my run and to keep me from giving up mid-run.

Now, I prefer the solitude of running alone. I don’t listen to music. It’s just me, my thoughts, and the quiet outdoors.

I don’t feel like I have to keep pace with anyone, or talk to them. I can work through the things that have been on my mind. I can just get lost in my running and not worry about where I’m going. I can see things I otherwise would have missed. I can wonder at the beauty of my surroundings, and for a brief while free my mind of the shackles of my disorders.

This is part of what makes running so therapeutic for me.

The Oatmeal perfectly illustrates why running works for me in one of the comics in his book on running. Unfortunately, I can only find the first panel.


The second panel is the world looking bright and colorful, the burden gone, and the person saying “Wheee! Fuck all that!”

And that is basically what running does for me.

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Back to regular training

It’s been over a week since EEC.
I should have started my training a day or two after we got back from Orlando, but that didn’t happen. Between the 5k and walking around AK & DTD I was NOT ready to start running. I had planned to go for a run last Wednesday, but my right shin was sore and I was worried it was the start of shin splints, so I elected to give it another day or two of rest. Then it was the weekend and there was rain and Mother’s Day. So Tuesday night I finally got back out to running.

I am no longer following the C25K/10k program. I’ve decided instead to start my Dopey training, so I’m following Galloway’s training plan with a really easy pace to work on my endurance and get my milage up, then in July when I’m supposed to actually start the program I’ll start again from the beginning training with a faster pace.

I ran with a 1/1 interval this week, which is a good comfortable pace right now, athough I plan to increase that to at least 2/1 if not 3/1 by July.

I think one of my favorite things about my new job is that I’m around people who love fitness, which is helping me stay in that mindset and actually feel like I want to run, because I’m not getting that organically anymore.

I am really enjoying my new job. And I’m super excited because I’m going to be getting more responsibilities and more hours, including the potential to actually do some teaching (not Tae Kwon Do classes, but other less formal fitness classes). And if I can bring in 20 new students before Princess registration the school is going to sponsor me for that race.

Speaking of race sponsoships. Its clear that I’m going to have to do some fundraising in order to pay for #RunAllTheRaces2016 so I’m looking into crowdfunding options. However if I go that route I really want to take the opportunity to bring as much awareness to Depression as possible. So I’m thinking that a portion of everything I raise will go to a depression/mental health charity. I just need to find a good one. If you know any (other than the National Center for Suicide Prevention, because people with depresison need help LONG before suicide comes into the picture, and that is what I want to concentrate on) please leave your suggestions (and a link if possible) in the comments!