What A Week

Welp, that default positive that I’ve been enjoying for the last two weeks is gone.

I’ve been spoonless pretty much all week, but once I tell you about last weekend it won’t be that surprising.

I’m behind on my running, just because I’ve been so overwhelmed with everything else that is going on, then on the days that I did plan on running, there ended up being bear sightings, which put a prompt end to that plan.

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Sometimes Good Weeks Happen

When you have depression, it’s pretty easy to just trudge through a life of black and grey where everything is either bad or not so bad (if you can feel anything at all). Good things may happen, but they are just tiny blips on the radar filled with blah.

But every once in a while, I have one of those weeks where things don’t feel quite so hopeless.

This is one of those weeks

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Why I Like Running Alone

When I first started running, I absolutely needed someone to run with me. The idea of being out there alone just didn’t appeal to me, plus I knew I needed someone to hold me accountable to make sure I actually went out for my run and to keep me from giving up mid-run.

Now, I prefer the solitude of running alone. I don’t listen to music. It’s just me, my thoughts, and the quiet outdoors.

I don’t feel like I have to keep pace with anyone, or talk to them. I can work through the things that have been on my mind. I can just get lost in my running and not worry about where I’m going. I can see things I otherwise would have missed. I can wonder at the beauty of my surroundings, and for a brief while free my mind of the shackles of my disorders.

This is part of what makes running so therapeutic for me.

The Oatmeal perfectly illustrates why running works for me in one of the comics in his book on running. Unfortunately, I can only find the first panel.

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The second panel is the world looking bright and colorful, the burden gone, and the person saying “Wheee! Fuck all that!”

And that is basically what running does for me.

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Back to regular training

It’s been over a week since EEC.
I should have started my training a day or two after we got back from Orlando, but that didn’t happen. Between the 5k and walking around AK & DTD I was NOT ready to start running. I had planned to go for a run last Wednesday, but my right shin was sore and I was worried it was the start of shin splints, so I elected to give it another day or two of rest. Then it was the weekend and there was rain and Mother’s Day. So Tuesday night I finally got back out to running.

I am no longer following the C25K/10k program. I’ve decided instead to start my Dopey training, so I’m following Galloway’s training plan with a really easy pace to work on my endurance and get my milage up, then in July when I’m supposed to actually start the program I’ll start again from the beginning training with a faster pace.

I ran with a 1/1 interval this week, which is a good comfortable pace right now, athough I plan to increase that to at least 2/1 if not 3/1 by July.

I think one of my favorite things about my new job is that I’m around people who love fitness, which is helping me stay in that mindset and actually feel like I want to run, because I’m not getting that organically anymore.

I am really enjoying my new job. And I’m super excited because I’m going to be getting more responsibilities and more hours, including the potential to actually do some teaching (not Tae Kwon Do classes, but other less formal fitness classes). And if I can bring in 20 new students before Princess registration the school is going to sponsor me for that race.

Speaking of race sponsoships. Its clear that I’m going to have to do some fundraising in order to pay for #RunAllTheRaces2016 so I’m looking into crowdfunding options. However if I go that route I really want to take the opportunity to bring as much awareness to Depression as possible. So I’m thinking that a portion of everything I raise will go to a depression/mental health charity. I just need to find a good one. If you know any (other than the National Center for Suicide Prevention, because people with depresison need help LONG before suicide comes into the picture, and that is what I want to concentrate on) please leave your suggestions (and a link if possible) in the comments!

New Plans

Well, another week and I’m still not back to my regular routine. Evening conference calls, crappy weather and a little boy who refuses to take naps (then decides that 3 am is the perfect time to play for a few hours) has made it hard to find the energy to get through the 2.5+ mile runs that I’m supposed to be doing right now.

I SHOULD get back into the swing of things (although I’ve been saying that for almost 3 weeks now) this week. I ran on Sunday, and we are running tonight.

However, because of the delay, as well as a few other things, my plans/goals for this year have changed.

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